On the 3rd of August 2016 I'll be getting on a plane to fly to Amsterdam - but this time we're talking about a one way ticket.
Moving to Holland has been something that I knew that was coming for a long time. Its the norm here to either stay on the island or move to the States or to the Netherlands once you're done with high school to continue with your studies. I've always known that this day was going to come, but I never thought it would be this hard and so heartbreaking.
I've been done with high school for about 2 months now, but this heavyhearted feeling didn't hit me until about two nights ago, the 1st of August. I've been so busy the past few weeks, getting all our papers done and finishing up little things for the big move that I didn't even have time to think about all these emotions, or what it is to be actually leaving home, where I was born and brought up for the past 18 years.
Growing up on Aruba (or any other Caribbean island) is definitely way different compared to growing up in a big European country or city (not that I would know, because this is the first time I'm going to live somewhere else).
In my opinion, everyone here is used to a very laid back, happy, sunny & relaxed lifestyle. People just like to go with the flow here. 20 minutes late for an appointment? No big deal, happens to everyone once in a while...or everyday, right? Too lazy to get dressed up? That's alright, just throw on some shorts, a tank and some slippers and you're done! Got caught by the police doing something like driving while on your phone...without a seatbelt...and no license? That's fine, just make sure don't do it again...alright? The list can go on and on, but you get the point.
As you can see, the vibe here is pretty "whatever man, do your thing!", but at the same time people can get caught up in everyone's business, you see the same people everywhere you go & I feel like I've just seen it and heard it all. I'm ready for something new.
I'll definitely miss this place. It's home. It's where I feel most at ease, it's my comfort zone. It's what has formed me to be the person I am today. It has given me so many unique opportunities that I could not have experienced anywhere else. I have made incredible friends here, that I would not have found in any other place. And I am so so so grateful for all these things.
Not going to lie, I am EXTREMELY scared of what's to come, but that's normal and that's what I have to go through to push myself to reach even better things. I always need to keep pushing myself out of my comfort zone, because that's where all the magic happens after all, right?
I just want to wish the best of luck to anyone reading this, who is starting a new journey anytime soon. Whether you need to repeat a grade, are starting a new school, or even moving to a new country, just remember to make the best out of every single moment. Learn from each experience, because everything happens for a reason. Take it all in. It's up to you to make the best out of any situation and make your life the best ever. Go for it x
P.s. Got any questions about what I'm going to study, what my living situation will be, or any other random questions? Leave them below and I'll see if I can answer them in the next post! You can ask anonymous! x